hey
you girl
your sad words are disappeared from here
he found you
and you sit there nicely used beside him
stretched and sore
gloriously sore
~ there are more ~
kinksters for us to meet...my whore
and your manhood throbs on my tongue

i.....just a leaf on the water
carried
carried
and when the surface is calm 'tis as a sheet of glass
my heart lulled to watch the dragonflies pass
and drink
and i sweet wine
only in my head
not yours
yet when the surface corrodes and twists and greys
i sink to the bottom
my tears transform into lead
there is no freedom
no light

it's an homage...in black
and red
the last one
i'm looking at them now
vibrant
and when the colours fade
as they numerous times have
i'm brushing away to be yours another day
behind the curtain
in red
in black
to remind me of the years you were here and i
was frail for you
and human

i descend and there's a friendly smile
looking my way through the trees
why the friendly smiles
only i cannot escape the filth
the name that you gave
do i now?
i can't comprehend how
to let go of you...my dearest love
nobody told me when
and i broke
hades calls me in
dig....with me
my little grave
only hours away
a heartful of liquor sang me to sleep
fitful
why not you
why not you
is it now
is it now
that i stop singing of hope
yes
no
no

wept out
i'm weary of loss
the pain of loss
just
don't
come
any
closer
to the flame
anyone
everyone
anymore
no matter what
i cannot change my hallow heart and i don't want to be
this way...that i am
anymore

i don't own
i.am.owned.
don't tell me i'm different
i already know
and my desires are searing through my skin

what has happened to your eyes of dark
drink drinking my soul
how delicious it felt
lover
lover of mine
i was saved
for your n'er harsh...harsh latch
would i rather consume.....the rainblack
of wonder and circles
and self
and hoping your life has not........
and ripping my heart out
hour
after time
yes
i would rather be doomed
than take my leash away
from you
and our together nights

have I gone through them all
the commotions
~ are you alive..are you alive ~
please let there be no more ideas in this head
and every stair I climb
burns violently behind
me
I don't wish to step...to the next
I shall be then alone at the window-less peak
I believe...my soul...has gone on ahead to see
am I strong enough
am I
I am not...not without my keeper my guide
I keep looking to the first where you could have held me
in your arms
you wished to hold me in your arms
my heart's bloodlet and it loathes me so this day
how could I
how could I not have taken you for mine
for an hour or an eve
for a week
I don't care
I don't care
any memory would have stayed to the last
any time would have been alive
a fiercetight cumming of flesh against open flesh...love
lover...in a distant realm
I need you more than I can ever tell
and you cannot hear
my cries

I don't know how to say.....
I live to be your neci
bless-ed of lethe
there are no former suns to quench me anymore
mine unfamiliar other me has passed away
'tis in the circle you drew
that I dream
and....I'm compelled you see and lose the rhythm
of my own breath
I can only be my true me
suckling on the mist of your requests
tamed
under the wicked brown lights I crave
I've fallen so deep
and you are good
a delicious evil good
I've fallen

I almost got lost again
and
despair began to dance its horrid dance
the dance of disfigured hearts
but you are different and make me proud
and I couldn't bear for you to see
such a vile creature
dancing with broken me
I sliced out the pain my dearest
and sent it out to the devil's door
and the scar heals
and rips and heals
on each smile that your lips can smile
and you and I can dance
as before